“Where there is light, there is darkness.”
When I was a child, I would try to run away from my shadow. I was maybe 8 years old.
As a 40 years old man, I try to run from my shadow also. But, this time, it is different.
We all have been there. We try to shed light only on parts of our public profile that will make us feel important or successful.
For most of my life, I have tried to be the perfect student in high school. I also tried to be the employee of the month.
I failed each time because of self-sabotage. I was pouring so much energy to try to fit an ideal that I thought was what the world wanted to see.
Often when people talk to me about Africa (which is not a country!) or Senegal, they always have the same sentence: “You are so positive, always smiling even if you have so little.”
I have been trapped in the Black, positive persona, always smiling and being positive.
It is exhausting. It takes me so much energy. For the past 5 years, at work or in my private life, I have been working on embracing my dark side.
I want to let the world know that my shadow is part of who I am. I even have many shadows that were shackled deep underground.
I am working on setting them free. I am a nice guy, most of the time. I can also be an asshole sometimes.
I am religious. I pray. I am also a “sinner”. Because for me, life is not always about sacrifice and expecting heaven after death.
Before I tell you more about my shadows, let’s meet the elephant in the room.
What is a shadow? How does it work? Why do we need to free it?
Often, when we think of our shadow, we see it as an evil character in our life story.